"Who am I?" - Have any of you ever wonder? Simple yet deep in its meaning. I feel like I don't understand myself anymore. What you want, how you feel, what you like and the way you thinks will somehow makes up the person you are, but as for me, I'm not so sure anymore. Everyday I'm feeling even and even more confused, just who or what the heck am I? What kind of rights do I have to exist, to breathe, to dream, to love? I don't know why, but everything seems like reality and illusion at the same time. There was a few times when I was talking to people, laughing and chatting, and this thought just pass through my mind, what if I just disappear right now, like, into a puff of smoke? Okay I'm weird, who else but me will have this kind of abnormal thoughts when having fun? Sometimes I just feel like I'm losing grip, everything I love and treasure will disappear no matter how tightly I try holding on.
Okay sorry for the emo interruption above :) Looks like I had just trashed the stuff that I'm supposed to post on my Tumblr, usually I don't post this kind of stuff here haha :x Anyway! I'm blogging for 5 days in a row now ^^ *PROUD* Went on a study date with Amanda and her friend (is he called Johnny or Johny or GuangZheng sorry I forgot) which is joined by Javan very much later. Amanda was super duper late!!!! Seriously, I'm supposed to be THE late queen and yet I have to wait for somebody else? WEIRDDDDD. Not exactly productive today but I finished my Chemistry worksheet, with credits to BDF (along with the skirt) :D :D :D Even kop his Chem TYS home :x BDF rocks for treating me Long John's even though I had to forked out $1+ :P Amanda had to camp at my house after that for a while cuz she don't have her home key :x AND finally I'm able to play MAPLEMAPLEMAPLE again, after 5 months!!!! *wide grin* Got rusty and can't remember what quest I'm supposed to be doing though ._.Watching Karate Kid tomorrow with 4E1 people! :D
