wah. i today is filled with tons and tons of vulgarities. bcuz of some shitty reason. feeling emo today. urgh. not feeling particularly good... freaking fuck up la. hate my bullshitted life, which is sooo freaking pathetic. yes, i'm pathetic, so what. so you gonna do with me. i hate the world. i hate you. yes, even you. oh, FUCK. ok, maybe i dont hate you since you read my blog. but i really sincerely hate most of the world. i hate it when friends dont care about you and your freaking feelings anymore. i hate it when bullshit scientists use innocent animals for testing. i hate it. urgh. i also hate it when i cant get what i wanted. i hat it when people hate me, i had already done my best to make friends, why should they even hate me?! i hate it when people interrupt me when i'm in a super bad mood, like now. i hate people who betrayed me, especially those whom i thought as a very close friend who i really cherished. oh my god. fuckkaass.
jiawan said i look emo today. to me, there's no such thing as emo. there's only such things as acting cool and not talking. either that, you are having one of your bad mood and hate the whole world. urgh. super urgh.
ok. breathe in, breathe out. i'm really typing these like mad. crazy. whatever. i'm not acting emo k. there's no such thing as eo in my life dictionary, neither can you find it too in oxford and longman dictionary (i think la...).
so. there's a reason why i feel really b.a.d. today. during geography, mdm siti told us to form our own groups for geography project. immediately, everyobne started to ask one another. everyone but me was asked. i'm really pathetic. no body even care about me, or my feelings. my so-called friends are always all together in a huge group, excluding the always-pathetic me. arghh. i really hate this kind of me. fuck.
oh my god. how can i hate my friends?! i dont know what's getting into me. i'm goinmg crazy soon. freak-out.