hey. it's really, really a long time since i last post... i'm really sorry... and i don't really think that anyone's reading my blog already, as it had been in coma for such a long time and nobody even bothers about it anymore... ok, since not really a lot of person read my blog, i can say more of my secrets, heheheheeeheehee... bwa-HAA-HA-HAAAAA-HA-HA-HA-HAAAAA!!!
ok, i don't think i should be so loud, so 'shhhhhhhh'...
ok, so my sec 1 year has officially ended, with zero glamour and blerghh with everything... so, at least i'll be a sec2 next year, which means that i'll get to bully some 'innocent' sec 1, hohohohohoho!!! fine, i'm just joking. it's great to know more friends anywaaaaayy...
since it's already holidays, you think i'll be having tons and endless of funs, right?! W-R-O-N-G, WRONG!!! it's getting bored and bored... and even bored as the clock ticked by. *sigh..* nobody was free to go out!! everytime i ask, only yifan got time and i don't know whaddaheck was happening to everybody else!!
i'm going lunatic, i think.
yeah, great.
frustrated is a great word to describe me. i don't know what to say anymore. when everybody sees me, i'm always happy, joking around and seems like i have no trouble at all. yes, that's the fake me. F-A-K-E, fake. nobody has ever seen the real me before. repeat after me, N-O-B-O-D-Y. (ok, sorry for spelling out the words. i know it ahd get ontop your nerves, blog, or to whoever is kind enough to even visit my blog. yeah, like they care.) the real me is nothing like the fake me. the real me is faaaaaaaarr more quieter, a person who actually behaves on all occasion. (i KNOW what you are thinking right now: 'yeah yeah yeah. as if.') nobody will ever understands me.
my heart is breaking. my heart is crying out for help. for attention. seeking out there for a true friend who i can really open my true inner self to.
i just don't know what to do. i don't have any best friend like the main characters in the happily-ever fairytales or nicey-nicey storybooks.
i know that i sound a bit dramatic but every single thing i said on my blog is true. truer than true, like what they said that some heart is purer than pure. i. don't. lie. in. my. blog. like. some. idiotic. fake. asshole. who. are. absolutely. pathetic.
if only i can get a very very very best friend who i can reeeeeeeaaaally confide myself to.n and i was still panicking who to sit with next year, on the first day of school. i mean, everyone is in pair and i can't actually break them up, right?! i really feel like crying. my world is gonna crumpled soon.
freak.